{"id":494,"date":"2016-08-01T00:33:43","date_gmt":"2016-08-01T00:33:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/?p=494"},"modified":"2016-08-01T00:33:43","modified_gmt":"2016-08-01T00:33:43","slug":"nerves","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/?p=494","title":{"rendered":"Nerves"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m in Bethesda, MD, just outside of Washington DC, and this year&#8217;s\u00c2\u00a0<em>Balisage<\/em> conference\u00c2\u00a0starts tomorrow. I&#8217;m excited and a bit nervous.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve spent most of today preparing my talk, which is why I&#8217;m nervous. It always happens. While planning\u00c2\u00a0a paper, I tend to be convinced that it&#8217;s the greatest thing ever, or not very far off. While writing it, uneasiness creeps in and while I&#8217;m still convinced of the paper&#8217;s merits, I am no longer sure I should be the one writing it. I put it off, one day at a time, thinking that I have plenty of time to\u00c2\u00a0rediscover the enthusiasm that led me to the subject to begin with and decide I should clean up my computer instead. Or something equally pointless.<\/p>\n<p>This goes on until the last possible moment, that is, a few days before the submission deadline, after which I force myself to write the first draft and submit it, usually minutes\u00c2\u00a0before midnight on the final day. A more charitable person might call this &#8220;process&#8221;, but &#8220;terror&#8221; is probably closer to the truth.<\/p>\n<p>Completing the\u00c2\u00a0second draft, provided that the first is accepted, of course, tends to be similar. If my self-doubt runs\u00c2\u00a0sufficiently deep, I will have trouble opening the reviewers&#8217; comments and much more trouble updating the paper itself. Again, a last-minute fix is required and is what usually happens.<\/p>\n<p>Wash, rinse, repeat for the slides.<\/p>\n<p>Which is why I&#8217;m writing this instead of finalising the\u00c2\u00a0slides.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m in Bethesda, MD, just outside of Washington DC, and this year&#8217;s\u00c2\u00a0Balisage conference\u00c2\u00a0starts tomorrow. I&#8217;m excited and a bit nervous. I&#8217;ve spent most of today preparing my talk, which is why I&#8217;m nervous. It always happens. While planning\u00c2\u00a0a paper, I tend to be convinced that it&#8217;s the greatest thing ever, or not very far off. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[19],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/494"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=494"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/494\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":495,"href":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/494\/revisions\/495"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=494"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=494"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sgmlguru.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=494"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}